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love hanging out with him.

when baby’s asleep… parents will… be nerds?

this is what john looks like after three hours of sleep… and two nine hour days of daddy and grayson… oh yeah and a 10 hour shift at work… I think he looks pretty dang good for that!

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it’s crazy to me that after eight years I still get butterflies in my belly at the thought of seeing john. when I was in california I missed him like crazy… and if it wasn’t for a stupid layout at the JFK airport… I probably would’ve jumped him right there in the lobby… he’s a pretty uhmazing fellow. I don’t know how I got so lucky.

had trouble sleeping last night… so I was pestering him a lot via text. he’s so good about it to. you know he’s thinking in his head, “dern it woman! I’m working!”… but he would never say that… he just answers my texts… and helps me get through the night. what a guy.

it’s hard to believe that we have a child now. it’s been quite the adjustment. we don’t get near as much time together as we used to. I miss him. I miss us. we’re still fine… we get along super well, but not getting to spend time together does begin to take it’s toll. we’ll figure it out.

I wrapped presents last night. let me tell you, homeboy is getting seriously spoiled this year. he’s a serious rc nerd… so I indulged. it was fun. he deserves it. he’s been so kick arse through my whole pregnancy and now with the bebe. he works so hard, too. he’s awesome. I seriously love the h-e-doublehockeysticks outta him. for real.

I remember when I met him it was more of a conquest. I didn’t even like him that much! look at us now… it’s just hard to believe I guess.

we took baby g to the grocery store today. I keep forgetting I take him out a lot more by myself… john hasn’t had too much experience with him outside the house. he kept saying, “wow, he’s being really good.” and I’m thinking in my head, “duh.” but then I have to sit back and remember the guy works ALL THE TIME. so, it was fun to experience it with him. he was excited. he’s funny. being with my two boys is my favorite. they are my life. and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

so here’s to you, john,

I love you so much. you’ve given me a life that I’ve always dreamed of. you’ve enabled me to take chances. you’ve given me the most beautiful baby on the planet. you’ve made it possible for us to afford a place where we can keep the furry kiddos. you’ve put up with my love for animals (even when it’s raged out of control)… you’ve backed me up when I needed you to. you’ve talked to me, when I didn’t want to listen. you’ve hugged me and let me cry. you’ve come home from work when I heard a scary noise. you are constantly making me laugh. you are my one. I wouldn’t trade you for anything! (ok, maybe a ford f150 fx4) KIDDING! I could go on forever about all the things I love about you… you know this. I don’t know how I got so lucky… but I’m so happy I left that post-it on your windsheild eight years ago. you’ve made me a very happy mama. I love you. over and over and over. forever.

love, me.

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mourning the death of my macbook.

three years ago, for christmas, john gave me a macbook. it had been a really good year for us, we bought a house, we got engaged, his new business venture had taken off… needless to say, really good year. so, he spoiled me that christmas with the one thing I had wanted for a long time. a white macbook.

it was exciting. it was the perfect accessory to my new shiny rock. har har.

fast forward three years. we got married (on 12/31 of that same year). we moved from our beautiful home that I love and rented it out. (luckily, thank god, we have great renters… but I was just thinking today how it’s crazy that at this point, they’ve lived there longer then we did. typical…) we’ve moved three thousand miles. and our business is still afloat, but definitely not where it was three years ago. and best of all. we have a son. a son!

but, I still had my trusty macbook… that reminded me of our beginning. our first christmas, in our first home. well, it died. it technically died last summer… when in a bout of (let’s blame it on pregnancy hormones) rage I threw it across the room and the battery popped out… and wouldn’t go back in. luckily, I didn’t completely destroy it… the power cord still worked. but if you know macs, you also know that the power cord has to be more cute than functional… so it’s magnetic and if you move it the wrong way, or it’s hooked on something… you’re gonna lose power.

long story short, it was painfully annoying. but I still clung to it… it was the last remnant of our life in california… and I wanted to hang onto it as long as I could. but… it didn’t have the same feelings I did apparently. thanks macbook, I see how you are.

hello, cyber monday. I can’t afford a new macbook… 1000 bucks?! are you insane? not with a new baby anyway… I was hoping they would have a killer sale on monday, but they don’t have to. they are apple.

so, I decided to tone it down a couple notches and get a netbook. I found a samsung. (I love samsung. we have a samsung refrigerator, washer and dryer, and tv upstairs)… they are so nice looking! lol… totally not about practicality around here apparently.

it arrived today. and let me tell you, it’s precious. I’m coming to you live from it right now. it has the feel of a macbook because the screen has rounded edges and the keyboard is chiclet style just like mac. it was a great 750bucksless alternative… so, I told john this is his gift to me for christmas… and I could tell by the look on his face he felt relieved… apparently, I’m not the easiest person to shop for…

so, I suppose a part of me has finally said goodbye to california. it’s time to accept this new life and move on. only took me three years. I guess it could’ve been worse. I miss it still… but life is here. a crazy. awesome. life.

and it’s finally starting to fit.

 I know this pic is weird…was just messing around with the goodies on the new pc. yep, I’m officially a pc. toodloo.

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seriously need to get more organized.

things are going a bit haywire lately. grayson and I still have not managed to get on a schedule. I keep making excuses like, “well, if he was breastfeeding better…” or “well, the formula he’s on is pre-digested, so he can’t possibly be able to sleep longer than 2-3 hours.” but, it’s time to figure something out.

for one thing, I go back to work this saturday. (crazy, how fast these 8 weeks have flown.) but it’s only saturdays right now. I’ll go back fullish time in jan/feb. I need to have something worked out by then, because I can’t be sleeping at work from 8-12! plus, last night was particularly painful. I’m trying to get him to sleep in his crib (he’s been sleeping in his swing because of the massive amounts of spit up.)… and it’s just been a rocky road. I wish I was one of those moms that could let him cry it out… but I’m having a hard time with that.

plus, if I don’t start sleeping at night, john and I are never going to see each other. I feel like we haven’t hung out in forever… and I can’t have that. I love my little man… don’t get me wrong… but I love my husband, too… and I feel like I have not been tending as much to that relationship as I need to. so, there.

last night I ordered a few books on getting the baby on a sleep schedule. please god, let them work. right now, I’m downstairs listening to him on the monitor… he’s just babbling… the kid does not sleep unless he’s rocked and cuddled… and even then, when you put him down, he’s wide awake. I know I did this. I’m just trying to fix it now. friggin’ frack.

last night I was so friggin’ anxious with his noises and whatnot while in the crib, I couldn’t sleep. plus, by the time john got home my nerves were so friggin’ fried everything he was doing was driving me insane! I had to take two advil pm to get to sleep this morning…

so that’s my gripe session for today. wish me luck. I’ve gotta get this house back on track… for all of our sanity. including baby g.

in other news, I got our christmas tree today… came all the way from the basement :) …
it’s just a cute little fakie, but it works. the less I have to clean up come new years, the better. can I get an amen?

welp, I’m off. until next time, toodloo.

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thank. you. god.

this is a beautiful thing.

and the first time it’s happened all. day. long.

it’s been a frustrating day. I got a quickie nap this morning (thank you john.)… and when I woke up I could tell it was going to be one of those days. I came down the stairs to a look from john that was like, “help!” he told me about  a half an hour before I woke up he was halfway up the stairs to get me. bless him. I needed the extra half an hour. especially for this afternoon.

from the second I woke up, he’s been fussy. I mean FUSSY. he wouldn’t eat, I changed him (worst changing session ever, mind you. he was squirmy screamer mcsquirmyson…), I fed him, I rocked him, cuddled him, put him on the playmat, fed him again, changed him, put him back on the playmat…

finally, sleep. thank you playmat. now he’s in the swing, rocking happily. phew, what a relief.

onto other news, I have something exciting going on that I can’t say anything about for a couple of weeks. I know, why even bring it up? well, I’m about to burst with excitement, that’s why! so, there’s a little teaser. come back to find out what it is. it’ll be worth the wait. I’ll take LOTS of pictures. trust me.

oh, and if you like the blanky in the pic, you can go grab something similar here. the red pistachio has THE cutest prints and her stuff is amazing. I’m a HUGE fan of hers and her sister over at the spotted barn. go check em’ out. if you have a baby shower coming up… they have THE cutest gifts. no joke.

anywho, away I go.



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thankies… and etsy yummies…

as we all know, today is the stuff your face, watch the parade, laugh with family awesomeness we refer to as thanksgiving… for john and I it’s been a couple of lonely years on thanksgiving. the first couple of years spent in connecticut we had our feast alone. last year it was kind of awesome, because I decided to take it upon myself and make our meal… (thanks, martha!) considering I’ve not really cooked much in my life (last year was when I decided to teach myself…), it turned out pretty friggin’ fabulous… but I digress… fast forward one year, to now. we. are. a family. how thankful am I for that? um, pretty dang thankful.

god is good. that’s all I have to say about that.

this last year has given me a HUGE amount of reasons to be thankful… and here are just a few (don’t want to keep you here for days, do I?). my completely awesome husband who I’m so lucky to be married to. he’s also becoming such an incredible daddy. I’m really proud of him. (especially because he said he never saw himself having kids. but then he married me… that’s what he gets! hehe) GRAYSON. from the second I got pregnant with him I loved him. which is lucky considering I had a miserable pregnancy. it kept me going. thank god for that. our amazing family. I’ve been extremely blessed with incredible in-laws as well. both my MIL (and family) and my FIL (and family) are all uhmazing… and I’m so happy grayson is going to have four sets of fabulous grandparents and two loving aunts. he’s a lucky kid. I’m thankful that I’ve gotten to grow up with all of my grandparents and my great-grandparents. granny, (great-grandma, most uhmazing woman ever, who I adore) gave us a scare this past year. (she’s 91, fyi.) she’s doing better now… but it scared me and for a second there I was hating life that we lived over here… I’m thankful my husband has a job he loves and is getting his mba (go him!)… and I’m super happy his job enabled me to take three months maternity leave! oh, and we cannot forget my adorable pooches, elsie and baxter man. without whom, I may have a lot less stress and a lot less half-eaten chucks… but they’re worth it. (I’m curious why elsie targets my chucks anyway? nothing else is ever chewed up…)

needless to say, it’s been a great year. with the addition of grayson, I feel like john and I are moving in the right direction. it’s awesome. finally starting to settle into married life… and past a few gigantic bumps… we’re still here! hooray!

one of the newest additions to my bank of thankfulness is ETSY. I luff it so friggin’ much. it makes those painful late nights with little g… slightly less painful. here are a couple of the recent digs… tell me what you think…

this is the cutiepatootiehat seen in my six-week checkup post on grayson. it’s darling and john loves it. it’s his hat of choice for grayson right now and he had me order another one in the next size up and a brown one. the seller of these hats is totally awesome. she goes by “mama mac” and it totally suits her. totally cool chick. you should check out her shop. the hats are totally affordable and I can totally attest to the great quality. check her out: daddy mack hats.

this was a total impulse buy… and I’m totally glad I got it. it’s a diaper wallet. (not to mention completely adorable!) it’s just big enough to hold a couple grovia biosoakers, some grovia wipes, and my debit card/license, and my iphone. I’ve used it several times already. it’s awesome for when you’re just running out. it makes me a little happy inside. they are a little spendy, but in my opinion, totally worth it. plus, they have tons of designs… and they make baby bedding too… very cute shop… check em’ out here: everafter.

this onesie I couldn’t pass up. it’s from blink baby. she’s one of my favorites. I love the onesies she makes… she is also a very cool seller… it seems to be a trend on etsy. (part of the appeal)… the adorable hat, I couldn’t pass up. it’s made in maine…. which for some reason made it more appealing… new englander kinship maybe? plus, it’s hubby approved… which is always a plus. (too big for him right now. but looking forward to when I can see his cute lil head sporting this.) she’s got tons of cute ones… check em’ out – babbidge patch.

saved one of my fav’s for last… so originally, I ordered the longies (which are FAB btw.) for g to wear over some sustainablebabyish fitteds he has… but the seller accidentally sent me these ridiculously cute soakers. she messaged me and told me she’d made a mistake (before I even got them!) but told me to keep them… I tried to refuse… she wouldn’t take no for an answer. needless to say, it was a good day for me. please, please check her out… taryn stuff. she rocks.

if you’ve made it this far, congratulations… you’ve won an virtual air high five from yours truly. I hope I didn’t bore you to tears… but I could yack about etsy for about eighty hours, so consider yourself lucky. sorry about the picture quality. can’t find our good camera, had to settle for the iphone.

hope everyone out there has a fantastic thanksgiving… eat lots! it’s a get out of guilt free day.


oh and p.s. a huge thankies to my fabulous model, baxter… without whom, these pics may be a little less colorful.

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six week checkup = bebe and mama in tears…

today was baby g’s six week checkup as well as mine. mine was first. holymotherofmary, that was the most awful… well, we won’t get into that. it was nice to see my doc. luff her to pieces. she was asking me how soon she would be seeing me for the next one… next year, perhaps? I looked at her like she was from another planet. no. I need at least a year of not being pregnant to consider that… at least. I told her I am finally enjoying food again… and call me selfish, but I would like to relish in that for the moment. not to mention, I’d like to hog grayson for at least a little while! she also said the night I was in labor, she had four other women laboring… and I was the easiest one. she said john and I were already showing off our laid-back parenting style… he wants to come 4 weeks early? ok, no biggie. (what she didn’t know was I was FREAKING out in my head…) oh well, what she doesn’t know won’t hurt her. :)

grayson’s six week checkup was awesome. our peed (who is uhmazing, btw.) said he’s right on track. he’s already 10 pounds 5.5 ounces and 21.25 inches long! he’s nearly doubled his birth weight. makes me happy to know that although everything hasn’t gone as planned, our efforts have not been wasted… he also liked the cloth diaper. he had tons of questions about it, surprisingly. he asked me if I laundered them myself or if I sent out for a service? (uhm, do I look rich to you? hardy har har)… he also was happy we were doing it because of how sensitive our little man’s skin is. it’s nice to get a little affirmation from a guy who obviously knows what he’s talking about. he also told us that little g is very vocal for his age. this is not surprising to me… the kid talks in his sleep, when he’s eating, when he’s hanging out. he’s a funny little thing.

then the dreaded time came…

shots. ugh. they make me want to hurl myself off a cliff. I hate seeing the needle dive into my tiny son’s legs. last time, he had no issue with it. didn’t make a peep… not today. he let out the most heartbreaking, unbearable squeal I’ve ever heard come out of him. I started to cry, then he started to cry… it was all bad. but, it’s all over now. thankthelordjesus. until next month anyway. can’t wait to see what he weighs then!!

grayson on our way to the peed. isn’t he darling? I just want to squeeze him!

baxter making sure grayson is ok after his peed visit. baxter is such a love.

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I’m a wimp.

so, tonight is the first night I’ve tried putting little g in his crib to sleep. he’s sleeping like a baby (har har) as we speak and I’m a nervous wreck! (as I lay in the guest bed, next to his crib, hello?) it will get better. I know this, but why is it so hard to sleep away from him? we don’t have a huge house. it’s not like it would take me longer then two seconds to get to him from my room. I guess it’s just new mommyhood, in all of its glory. plus, I think john working nights… I’m particularly protective… knowing my big handsome protective man of a husband, is ten minutes away… by car.

so, there’s my story. I guess I just wanted to document this moment to look back at later… when I’m thanking my lucky stars he’s sleeping in his crib… peacefully.

thankthelordjesus for an adaptable kid.

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