okay, so obviously john hasn’t gone anywhere… but I miss him. badddddd. I would not trade grayson for anything in the world… and john working nights has saved us money and given me peace of mind… seeing as he’s home with g when I’m working… but we never see each other. I mean never.
if you know my husband at all… you know he works six, sometimes seven days a week. he works 10-14 hour days (nights)… and then he comes home, watches g… and when I get home, he has to go to sleep. oh yeah, and he’s working on his mba… which means on mondays and wednesdays, he goes to school and then goes straight to work. we see each other in passing… but that’s really, about it. it’s hard. harder than I could have ever possibly imagined. and military wives, I have to give you serious kudos… because honestly, I don’t know how you do it. at least I know he’s coming home every morning.
I spend many, if not all of my nights alone. it sounds nice for a loner-esque type chick like me… but the problem is, when you don’t want to be alone one night… tough. he still has to go to work… and you’re still left sleeping alone and tending to your infant son at 2, 3, 4, 5 in the morning. I’m not complaining… because there are so many families in the united states struggling without jobs… and here I am, working part time because his job affords me that luxury.
I guess all it comes down to is, it’s valentines day. I miss my husband. enough said.
oh and p.s. john, I hecka love you… and fortunately, you’re way worth the occasional bout of loneliness.
happy valentines day, lovey.