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oh the drama…

today has been… a day. a horrid kind of day. the kind of day you want to rewind and skip! but, obv we can’t do that, so why don’t I blog about it already.

g has had an INSANE rash for the last couple of weeks (yes, it’s been that long. not exaggerating.). we’ve seen the peed three times for it and nothing seems to be helping. if it’s still here in a week I have to take him back to the peed for some tests. it’s a very angry rash that worries the crap out of me… and up until the last couple of days he didn’t seem to notice… but the last couple of days he’s been super whiny and obv uncomfortable… so it’s been not so smiley around here. combine that with teething and a monstrous growth spurt (21 and a half pounds!!!)… and you’ve got yourself a recipe for an incredible grouchy baby and a frantic mama. I’m tired! so… long story short… I’m glad today is done. hoping and praying this rash goes away soon and it becomes a distant memory… until then, pray my nerves don’t curl up in a ball and die. mmmk? moving on to the happy stuff…

g army crawled for the first time today!!!! best part? john and I BOTH witnessed it! it was all kinds of awesome. he saw a toy he wanted and he dragged himself on over to it… all kinds of amazing. on the flip side… he now knows he can get where ever he wants… which is not always a good thing… but it’s still fun to watch him explore his surroundings…

on another awesome note… g’s smartrike came today! it’s a gadget I’ve been eyeing since before he was born, but it’s wicked expensive… so I wasn’t going to get one. but then the other day good ole’ zulily had a sale on it… I couldn’t help myself… I pounced!! it took about a million years to put together and a million breaks to tend to my super grouchy and mega whiny almost 8 month old, but once it was done… it was fabulous! I’m super stoked on it. once I got it put together g and I took a walk. which was great because it gave both of us some much needed fresh air and it gave him some time to chill out… okay, gave both of us some time to chill out… best part? the greenbelt in our neighborhood was full of little brown bunnies! they must have followed us here from connecticut! they were so cute!!! anywho, it was the perfect end to a challenging day… and now g is sound asleep and I? well I get to have time to RELAX. nighty night friends…

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lately…

can I just start by saying my ABSOLUTE favorite thing about texas is the very fabulous fact that john now only works every SIXTH weekend?! if I had known in advance that that was going to be the case I would have moved JUST for that. seriously! it’s been so so so nice having him around on the weekends… and even better? he’s not a zombie. that my friends… is priceless. (especially because he’s been working his tail off hanging pictures, putting up decals, erecting furniture… there is no rest for him to be had right now!)

we’ve been wicked busy. moving is a process… we are now the proud owners of a garage… we were super stoked to be able to park our cars in it… but what happens when you go from having a basement… to not having a basement? crap overload. it’s taking over our garage as we speak… and we have yet to be able to park a car in it. dear lord… help us sort through stuff… we don’t want an overgrown junk drawer! it’ll happen I suppose… in time. ugh. patience… so not my fortay.

in other news… the kid is getting cuter and cuter by the hour. and now that I have this super spiffy camera I’m trying to teach myself how to use… I’m snapping photos like crazy. I’m going to keep this post short… for moving has fried most of my remaining brain cells… here’s some photos from the last couple of days…

notice the furry helper to your left. he’s making sure daddy’s got it under control. john decided to do g’s night time routine friday night so I could get ready for our… ::gasp:: date!!

baxter supervising… funny story – during our cross-country road trip, one of the hotels we stayed in had a monstrous tub. I mean massive. probably the largest tub I’ve seen in my entire life… while john walked the dogs, g and I got in the humdinger of a bathtub and I was giving him his bath when ::SPLASH!!!:: out of nowhere baxter came plowing in 90 miles an hour and jumped into the bath… I’m laughing as I type this. it still gets me. his face was priceless… it was like mid-air baxter realized OH SH*&%?!!!! hilarious. john said he heard baxter yelp all the way across the suite. too funny. this dog is hysterical I telll you.

waiting for the ::AWESOME:: babysitter…

saturday and sunday were spent doing a whole lot of nothing… besides unpacking obviously… but it made for awesome pics of the little man…

he’s sitting up and rocking back and forth on all fours… I’m pretty sure crawling is only a matter of time and determination on his part…

this is the face you get when you walk into g’s room after he’s napped and you greet him with, where’s my baby! p.s. that is drool spots from his one nap… he doesn’t sleep on nasty sheets. mmmk? I’m over it.

this is quite possibly my favorite picture… to date. this is his pre-dinner face from tonight…

this is his post-dinner face… bless him. he’s precious I tell you.

and that’s all I’ve got for now. see you on the flip side.

toodloo…

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growing up grayson: SEVEN months (what?!)

um… excuse me… how did this happen? how did we cross the halfway mark of my sons first year without a blink? this month has been insane. emotionally draining, stressful, and lonely for me… but at the same time it allowed a LOT of mama and grayson time… which I’m super thankful for… because? a RIDICULOUS amount of changes are happening with this kid. ridiculous I tell you… it’s all kinds of amazing.

◊ stats…

weight: 18 pounds 14 ounces (as of april 30th… I’m sure he’s gained since…)

height: honestly? not sure… I know he’s grown since last month, though…

◊ changes this month…

obsessed is not a strong enough word for grayson’s relationship with his feet. he is ALWAYS playing with his feet. it’s quite possibly the cutest thing ever. in the car on our cross country trip I would watch him in the mirror. I’m almost positive he held onto his feet for at least 12 hours of that trip.

he’s putting sounds together. right now it’s “boo… boo.” and it sounds like he’s reallllllly sounding it out like, “booooooooooboo.” which is my nickname for him. I’m always saying, what are you doin’ boo boo!

he’s sitting up unassisted. don’t get too excited though… it’s only when he’s in the mood. he’d still rather be doing push ups.

the most exciting new trick?! he’s getting up on all fours and rocking back and forth!!! it’s so close to crawling I could spit! seriously… he gets up… looks at me and rocks wildly! I cheer so loudly I’m sure the people in this hotel think I’m a weirdo…

◊ tricks perfected this month…

he officially puts himself to sleep. I can put him to bed at 7:30, he’ll talk to himself for about ten minutes… and then… ::SLEEP:: he’s a rockstar when it comes to sleep, but now all I have to do is his night time routine and put him in his crib. he’s the bomb. this was huge for me. night time is when I get ME time.

◊ things I adore about baby g this month…

this has been my favorite month so far. grayson is becoming a little human! he’s laughing. he’s grabbing things. he’s pinching me with his toes (which cracks me up because I pinch john with my toes all the time)… he’s sitting up. he’s bouncing. he’s enjoying going out and observing his surroundings. the kid is just SO fun right now. we spent much of the month just the two of us… and I enjoyed being able to hog him… (it was challenging at times, don’t get me wrong…) he totally kicked butt on our cross country road trip… takes after his mama, likes being in the car. although, I must admit I really think he got his personality from john. so laid back. so easy going. not really moody like mama… he’s a great fit in our little family. I feel like I fall in love with him more and more every day.

here are our pics from our seven month “hotel special” photo shoot… my memory card ATE all of my photos from the road trip and wouldn’t work for me… so I had to take these with my iphone… sorry for the crappy quality. not for long though! john got me a dslr for mothers day! fabulous pics coming soon to crazybabypants! woo hoo!!

until next time… toodloo!

happy seven months baby boy… mama loves you.

p.s. he’s OBSESSED with this drum. we saw it over at katherine and everly’s and my mom bought it for him shortly after that… this was a life saver when we were driving cross country. he LOVED banging on it. I did too… it’s NOT ANNOYING.

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why I am officially OVER being a working mama…

tonight I didn’t get off of work until 6:15pm. once I got home, around 6:45pm, g was so tired he could barely smile while greeting me. once he realized it was me, he perked up… but only long enough for me to change his dipe, put his pj’s on, snuggle him for a minute… and he was ready for bed.

it. was. heartbreaking…

honestly, I’m pretty sure it was one of the worst feelings ever. on one hand, I am super proud of myself for getting him on such a stellar schedule… on the other? just this once, I wish he was feeling the need to stay awake for an hour… just an hour. I just needed to be around him… but he was tired. I could tell he and daddy had a very busy day… go daddy!

the good news? two weeks from tomorrow I am officially a member of the SAHM club! and I’m GIDDY about it. am I going to have bad days? yes… most definitely. more power to those of you mamas out there who continue to work… and I’ve had more than one day where I needed to go to work, but I’m so so so happy john has worked his butt off and made it possible for me to stay home and be the primary caregiver for our son. I imagine this is not the last of my working days… I plan to finish my degree in the coming years… and hopefully have a big girl job eventually… but for now, I’m going to enjoy my time being a mom and a wife… I’ll keep you posted on how it goes. ::sigh::

::a moment I don’t want to miss… bath time… he’s finding his hands!::

enough of the blubbering I tell you.

the last couple of days I’ve decided to enjoy john as much as possible. don’t get me wrong, we usually have no trouble enjoying each other, but especially right now… because it looks like we’re going to be apart for a while once he starts his new job. I’m NOT looking forward to it… and I’ve been a bundle of nervous stressy energy about it as of late. I rely on him for a lot. he’s my sounding board. he’s my partner in parenting… he’s my best friend! what can I say? I like spending time with the guy… and to not have him around for two to six weeks? scary. sad. stressful. not looking forward to it… and as a result? I’ve been a mega grouch. so, I’ve told myself I’m not going to do that. I mean come on… I need him to still at least like me when we reunite! hahaha… but seriously, moving is stressful enough as it is… we don’t need the added snarkiness… am I right?

here’s a couple more reasons I have a rad husband… (just in case you needed more reason to consider me the sappiest person on the planet…)

tuesday he hung out with me most of the day… and then that night? I got to go out with a couple of girlfriends and indulge in these…

which is something I haven’t been able to do since g was born… it was all kinds of fabulous. girl talk. martinis. and no baby worries… it may have only been for an hour, but it was an incredible gift. he even said when I came home… you need to do that more often, it’s nice to see you come home happy. hmph, maybe I just need a martini on occasion…

wednesday he hung out with us all day again… this is yet another reason I love my husband… he gives up precious sleep to share moments with us like this…

he was entertaining g while we waited for john’s turn in the barbers chair. pretty freaking amazing… needless to say, I love the guy. how could I not? he gave me that gorgeous little piece of baby heaven.

besides the seemingly never-ending back pain I’m experiencing and the mounting stress of the move… life is good. I need to remind myself of that on occasion… so I can stop being such an ungrateful brat! (I used another word, but deemed it inappropriate… use your imagination…)

that’s all for now… sorry for being lazy at blogging lately… too much going on around here! I’ll try to be better… until then, toodloo…♥

 

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since I can’t move, I might as well blog…

had an interesting wake-up call this morning. I awoke to what felt like a thousand needles in my back/neck/shoulders and a tingling sensation in my fingertips… as I eased out of bed I realized it was going to be a complicated morning. my head felt as if it was a hundred pounds and my neck could barely handle its weight. I then walked down the stairs as steadily as I could manage, all the while trying to keep my sanity as I listened helplessly to my baby cry for his morning feeding and cuddle sesh. once I reached the bottom of the seemingly endless stairs I caught john’s eye…

“omg, what’s wrong with you?” he asked, as if I looked as bad as I felt. thanks for the reminder, dear.

“I pulled something in my back.” was all I could manage. then the tears came. I’m such a wimp. cramps? tears. contractions? DEFINITELY tear action. puking? tears. bad headache? chance of tears… like I said, wimp.

“aww, babe. I’m sorry. sit down. I’ll get the icy hot.” he then rushed into the kitchen and came back armed with icy hot and some excedrin…

now mind you, john never once held my hair while I puked every day during my pregnancy. he almost always gets annoyed when I’m sick… he doesn’t like seeing me that way so he chooses to ignore it. so, I was definitely caught off guard when he rushed to my aid this morning. I’m pretty sure he could tell the pain was overwhelming… since he did make mention later in the day how the first thing he found odd was that I came down the stairs this morning sans baby g. which never happens… if he’s awake, he’s going to join his family…

that was the beginning. now here I sit, 8 excedrin, 4 rounds of icy hot, one piercingly hot bath, and many hours of the heating pad later… and? a little bit better. I still can’t lift my arms above my chest and it hurts so much for my neck to hold my head up I hunch over when I’m standing… but… any type of “better” is good by me at this point… I haven’t had back pain like this for at least a couple of years. DERN YOU STRESS!

when john had to go to bed at 5pm… I thought I was going to have a meltdown… up until that point I hadn’t lifted g at all today. thankfully, his bedtime routine was seamless… it was almost as if he knew he needed to take it easy on me tonight. do you think that’s possible? it sure seemed like it. he’s sleep moaning over the monitor right now. have I told you how obsessive I am about hearing him breathe at night?

his monitor is sort of flat. so it’s been velcro-d to the upper inside of g’s crib… why? so I can hear him breathe. I am OVER the top when it comes to this. it was something the doctors said over and over when he was in the nicu… we just have to make sure he’s breathing ok… and that has really stuck with me. even when he sleeps through the night I get up to make sure he’s breathing about eightythousand times… so when he sleep moans? I’m pretty much the happiest camper on the planet… like I said, he’s taking it easy on me tonight. bless him.

I could not be more grateful for these two today. john being such a trooper and tending to g’s every need… (and a few of mine!) and g for being a good little baby today. hanging out, taking it easy on mama and daddy… so the day could go as smoothly as possible. and it was kind of fun to watch. it was like I got to be a fly on the wall in daddy daycare… love them.

well, that’s all for now. toodloo…

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iphone photos: week 17ishhhhhh

this week has been nothing but craziness… (see previous post, a vlog! yay! er, yeah.) so, I missed tuesday and wednesday pics, but I got the rest of the week… here we goooooooo…

saturday morning I went to work and then that afternoon I went with the crew from work to a knitting class one of our clients hosted for us. it was fun… knitting is not nearly as complicated as I thought it would be. as my granny said, you can knit… you just need someone to show you! so true.

sunday was all about hanging out… and who better to babysit but baxter? haha… it’s kind of funny. I’m noticing when grayson is up and about… baxter is not far from him.

monday I didn’t have to work so I got to see john a bit in the morning. he and g skyped the grandparents, while I took a shower and cleaned up a little bit. they are wicked cute… and? I got bax and els’ portraits in the mail from wallfry… LOVE THEM. they are so stinking cute.

thursday brought some much needed time out of the house. the weather was nice enough to open the sunroof on the escape! holler! I went to work in the morning and then came home, scooped g up, and headed to katherines for a quickie hang out sesh. it was awesome. I always feel like I’ve burnt a crapload of calories laughing it up with her… and everly is just out of this world cute. she decided she wanted to be zipped up in g’s carseat and g “nigh-nigh”… I could’ve squeezed her from cuteness alone… and I had to take a pic of the diapers hanging on katherines line… SO JEALOUS… I need a line out back at our next house. I mean NEED. heeheh

friday I worked an eight hour day, so when I came home I was DYING to cuddle with g… and apparently he felt the same… check out that grin. love that kid. and I am seriously going to miss moments like this at my job, it kills the puppy fever for me… I get to snuggle them and then send them home with their owners. it’s a win win. and yes, my hair looks freaking haggard in that photo…

here are the daddy daycare pics of the week. I was SO PROUD when he sent me the photo from target. he never takes g out of the house… (I think it makes him nervous…) so I’ve been urging him to get out of the house with g and LOOK! here he is all by himself, running errands. happy mama.

anywho, that’s our week… did you take pics with your phone this week? link up over at amy’s blog… the more the merrier!

see you next week… toodloo!

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hi!

insert nervous laughter, obnoxiously weird facial expressions, and talking too flipping fast…

I give you…

my first vlog.

lord help us.

and p.s. youtube? thanks for the rad freeze frame.

p.p.s. why yes, those are my waytooawesometotakeoffafterwork red scrub pants… and a tee that says “nothin’ tips like a cow…” what? it’s fashion people!

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checking in…

we have some serious changes coming up… I can’t go into them right this second, but that’s why I’ve been neglecting my little corner of the blogosphere. details to come once I’ve got things a little more under control…

right now I’m a bundle of emotions. excited, nauseatingly nervous, happy, sad, and a tad numb… it’s crazyness. for serious. without being able to go in to detail… this is a tad boring. I apologize.

but for now, I just wanted you to know… I haven’t forgotten about you… and I also want to be able to look back and remember what was going through my head. because let me tell you, I don’t think I’ve ever had so much going on in my life! okay, that may be a slight exaggeration… I probably had this much going on about three years ago…

so… fair warning. I’m going to be one a slight hiatus until things have calmed down a little bit… or I have something more exciting to tell. sound good? good.

as for little g… he’s adjusting just fine to daylight savings time… with the exception of naps, but who am I kidding? we hadn’t mastered them before the time change…  also? he’s growing like a weed and I cannot believe he’s five months old already! sometimes, like now for instance, I crave squeezing him… and kissing him to death… okay, okay… I’ll stop. I’m redonk. I know. I just love the little bugger that’s all.

so – there you have it. the most nonsensical post of all time.

the end.

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iphone photos: week 16ish…

hi! this week was boring, stressful… same ole’ same ole’… so I decided this time I’m not going to post photos of this week, but rather I’m going to post some of my favorite iphone photos from g’s first week of life. I hope that’s ok… and I’m not breaking any rules? isn’t the only rule that they have to be taken with your iphone? well, these definitely were… and they’re too good not to find a place for them on here… I hope you like em’… it was kind of fun looking at my baby when he was just so so tiny!

anywho, onward!

this first photo is one of my favorites… it’s the first photo taken of little g out of the belly. he wasn’t even cleaned up yet!

here’s g holding daddy’s hand in the nicu… this one melts my heart. it’s been my background on my laptop since, oh… as long as he’s been alive.

my two boys… getting acquainted.

here’s g his first night home… right after he had literally sprayed me with poop. (literally, it was like a fire hose…) and then he’s so kind as to flip me off. nice g, nice.

this was pretty much the one thing john and g did a whole lot of that first week home…

me WEARING my baby…

john didn’t get much time off (I think five days…) and wouldn’t you know it… the night he goes back… g’s umbilical stump falls off. I sent him this via text message along with, we have a belly button! (and yes, that’s a disposable diaper… I wasn’t prepared, seeing as g came early… so he was three weeks old once the cloth diaper thing took hold of me…)

and that, my friends… is the highlight reel from g’s first week of life. see you next week… with pics from my week! (hopefully…)

did you take awesome pics with your camera phone? link up over at amy’s blog! the more the merrier!

toodloo!

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weekday getaway to cloth diaper heaven… and g’s new tricks!

last night, katherine and I decided the time had come to venture to the sustainablebabyish studio in mass. I scurried as fast as I could to my keyboard, typed erin a facebook post… and when she didn’t respond within her usual two seconds, I emailed her… she got back to us and hooray! it was on! katherine and I decided to head out around lunch time – aka nap time… to have a nice ride… this was a complete success… everly and grayson were both passed out until we arrived… there was a hiccup or two… it rained today and my windshield wipers decided to break – LAME… so we had to stop by the vw dealer to get them replaced… luckily it was a quick in and out… holler!

it was an awesome day… being surrounded by that amount of fluff… and not just any fluff… SBISH fluff… was overwhelming for me. I’m glad I limited my amount of spending before I got there because honestly? I was a kid in a candy store. I did, however, end up leaving with a nice surprise… a cutie patootie go go baby diaper bag. I got it for two reasons a) it has GIGANTIC G’s all over it… g for grayson of course! (ha, yes… nerd here.) … and b) it’s green and I’m pretty sure john will prefer wearing it over my fabulous cherry juju be… katherine got to add to her sbish stash… I know she was stoked on that… I can’t wait to see miss everly in her new wool…

oh yes and erin! just as nice and helpful in person… she did a lanolizing demo… ON MY WOOL. all kinds of awesome. they are drying as we speak. can’t wait to use them… I now own every color of wool sbish has other than berry…. and everly has those… I’m ADDICTED. there. I said it. moving on…

here’s g… looking almost unrecognizable to me! he never looks like this… I’m pretty sure he was getting sleepy at this point… poor little guy… it ended up being a long day for him and an even longer night for me! he just got to sleep and it’s 11:00!!! not kosher!

here’s everly being her cute little sociable self… she told erin’s five year old son she wanted to kiss him. she’s kind of adorable. that one.

here’s g-man during one of his ninethousand wardrobe changes… the kid was on a ROLL with spit up today. seriously. he’s lucky he’s cute…

here’s the group at the end of the day. hi erin! can I just say? this pic is total motivation to continue dieting. ::cough, cough:: grayson isn’t pictured… he was already in his car seat…

all in all? awesome day. the car ride was loads of fun chatting with the always enjoyable katherine… and making it through a day trip with a four and a half month old and a toddler? I’m feeling a lot more confident about having more one of these days… just a thought. haha.

in other news… g has taken to rolling over… ALL THE TIME. which has officially put me on serious edge at night time. he rolls on his belly and shoves his face into the mattress… it scares the crap out of me! I hate it. seriously. I keep trying to roll him back over and two seconds later he’s back on his belly. he’s obviously ok… but it scares me. I’m super stoked he’s hitting all his milestones on time though… I can’t complain about that one.

oh and p.s. have a couple of adorable videos I need to post from tonight. he was SO happy to see john. they had a full on conversation where grayson exclaimed, “DADA!” I’m pretty sure I died from pure baby cuteness…

that’s all for now… gotta go check on that rolling baby of mine. see you laterrrrrrrr… oh and p.p.s. check out sustainablebabyish … they’re kind of amazing. nighty night!

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