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top ten of twenty-ten…

I’ve been thinking about twenty-ten a lot today. only natural I suppose… this was a huge year for me. for a lot of reasons. many involving my little g-man… but not all. I’ve read tons of blogs today and many of them are posting top ten photos of twenty-ten. totally amazing… and some of the mamas got some great photos… but I don’t have photos for my top ten moments… so I thought I’d just write at cha’ about em.

these are in no particular order of importance. maybe in chronological order…

one – positive pregnancy test(s). I still remember the look on john’s face. whatthefrigginfrackdoidonow?! he was not thinking it would happen so soon. I remember telling my sister on the phone… a week before I even took the tests that I knew I was pregnant. call it mother’s intuition I suppose.

two – there’s movement! our 12 week ultrasound was incredible. definitely the best one of the entire pregnancy and I had what seemed like many. I just remember the feeling of lying on the chair while the technician ran the wand around thinking… this is real… this is happening… then, he started kicking and shoving his little arms at the wand every time she pushed even slightly on my tummy. he was already a feisty little one. by far, one of the best days of twenty-ten… possibly one of the best days of my life.

three – surprise! memorial day weekend john’s stepdad, norm was scheduled to come and visit on his way to his daughters house in mass. well, not only did he arrive… but john’s mom did, too! I was so happy to see them… and the surprise of having her here for the entire weekend was so freaking fabulous. I loved every minute… even though I puked the entire time… plus, the last day of their trip, I felt g move for the first time. it was a fantastic weekend and I’ll never forget it.

four – it’s a boy! I knew g was a boy. I just knew it. but seeing it on a screen and knowing it for sure… was magical. I would have been happy either way. in fact, in the beginning I was sure I wanted a girl… but there was something about my pregnancy, I was sure he was a boy… and I was happy about it. really, really, happy about it… and you should’ve seen the look on john’s face. holy lord, he was excited. uber frickin’ excited.

five – showers, showers, and more showers…! in the end, I ended up having three showers. two thrown in california by family and one here in connecticut by my boss… they were all awesome and they were definitely a treat. it’s really awesome to see how much people love your bebe even before he’s born. I do not recommend traveling when pregnant… (if you’re having a pukey pregnancy)… I’m pretty sure the entire plane could hear it… and it was not pleasant.

six – “you’re gonna have the baby this weekend…” jenna (my lovely co-worker) said on my way out of work. I had left early that day. I wasn’t feeling to savvy. I was thirty-five weeks preggo… but I had been thinking he was going to come early. I shrugged it off and went on my way… when I called her at five am the next morning to tell her she was going to have to work for me that day… I doubt she was super happy about her prediction… (I’m giggling right now to myself… still cracks me up.)

seven – “you can do it, babe… you’re doing so well!” my husband surprised the crizap out of me when I was in labor. he was supportive. he’d hunt down a nurse when he had to… and he got me popsicles all the time. when it came time to push he was so supportive… and even when I puked on him… he just kept telling me to keep going – we were almost there. he was a pain in my butt while I was pregnant… but he was killer when I was in labor… I guess I’ll take it. <3

eight – you’re mine. once the initial shock of mommyhood wore off… and the baby blues seemed to melt away (I’m sort of feeling like they’re still not fully melted as of late)… I finally got that feeling of holy cow, he’s mine… I’m the person that is in charge of this handsome little blob of bebe. he’s starting to develop a little personality now… and he’s smiling… so, lately has been a lot more fun… but I have to admit I still look at him from time to time and think… holy cow, you’re mine! it’s a trip, this whole motherhood thing.

nine – dad, mom, john’s mom, heather… having so much family out here this year has meant the world to me. I needed the help and support… and I needed to be around people that I didn’t have to “think” while I was around… if you know what I mean… just no work involved. especially my sister. we got to gripe at each other… and as crazy as it sounds… it was super comforting.

nine and a half – granny, nana, and papa. seeing my grandparents with my bebe was beyond amazing. since before g was born I was plotting on how soon I could get him out there to see them. especially granny, since she is 91… I wanted to make sure I (selfish, I know) had the chance to be around her with my son. I love them all to death… and it was an awesome experience… as well as being able to show him off to my dad, stepmom, john’s dad and stepmom… the trip to california was amazing.

ten – baxterlove. (as I sit here and type this, baxter is cuddling my side. trying to bring inspiration, I guess.) the entire time I was pregnant I fretted and fretted about baxter and how he was going to react to baby g. he’s been the only baby in my life for five years and I have spoiled him rotten. he’s gotten to go to work with me. he’s gotten to ride with me on errands. he’s moved several times with me. he’s been the best dog I have ever had in my entire life. and I was worried sick. and then we brought grayson home… baxter acted like it was no big deal. he’d sit on my lap with me and g while I cried trying to breastfeed. he’d mess up my pile of diapers as I tried to fold them (over and over because of his little bum.)… he’d lay with me as I’d try to get baby g to sleep. he’s been amazing. it’s almost like after five years of me taking care of him, he feels like it’s his turn to take care of me. and I freaking love him more than I ever have. which I thought was impossible. people told me my feelings for my pets would change after grayson was born. and I’m not gonna lie, my feelings for elsie have changed. I still love her to pieces… just not the same as I did before… but baxter. he’s still my little soul-dog. there hasn’t been one like him for me before… and there probably never will be again… so I’m going to take advantage of the time I have with him… and I’m going to hopefully instill in g the importance of animals… and what they bring. I better stop now. I could go on for days. I seriously love this dog. I tell john all the time I wish there was a pill out there that made dogs age like people… not seven-times as fast. see, here I go. I could go on for days.

so that’s my top ten of twenty-ten… there were many more moments that have been ingrained in my memory… but these were the first to mind. 2010 was a stellar year… and I can only imagine was twenty-eleven will bring. I have some ideas. but we’ll see what happens. I’m finding that what I want to happen and what actually happens don’t always coincide. ah, such is life.

bring it on, twenty-eleven. totally looking forward to it.

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week six: iphone photos

hello christmas. goodbye christmas. thanks for visiting.

it really does come and go quick, doesn’t it? the anticipation is insane… and then it gets here and it’s over in a blink. I’ve had an incredible week. my sister is here visiting… and we’ve had a really great visit. she and I have one of those relationships where we adore each other… but we’re also happy to see each other go if you know what I mean. this visit has kind of been the perfect amount of time. I about died from excitement when she got here… and I’m not quite ready for her to go home… but that’s kind of nice feeling. we were just talking about that earlier, actually…

anywho. on with the show. here’s a recap of my week… in iphone photos.

oh yeah, and merry christmas!

monday:

so, this week has been the week of baxter being cuter than usual. he seems to find the cutest places to curl up and fall asleep. this is g’s bouncy seat… I’m pretty sure bax would beg to differ… when I saw him here I had to snap a pic. thankthelordjesus I had my iphone nearby…

here’s a pic of g right before his doc appt. he had just pitched a GIGANTIC fit… thank god I have learned the art of packing a diaper bag for every possible bebe disaster. he took a earthshattering… doodie after this. but, thankfully, I had everything I needed. I think the medical assistant about died when I opened up that cloth diaper and it was full of youknowwhat… hallelujar for an uhmazing wet bag. all in all, HORRID appt… I’m never going without john ever again. I was a mess when I got home…

tuesday:

it suddenly occurred to me on tuesday that christmas was right around the corner. seriously awesome that I had some self control this year and didn’t open presents as they arrived. made christmas… well, christmas. worth it.

wednesday:

what’d I tell you… he was sleeping in the cutest places. I could eat him. he’s darling.

oh yes, and he’s pretty sure he’s the bebe. he was claiming the downstairs changing station here. he’s a funny little thing.

thursday:

SISTER!!!!!!!!!!!!

shopping at the most fab mall in ct… stopped for a bite at pf changs. love the lettuce wraps. seriously, delish.

my sister’s nickname in our fam is “monkey”, so it was only fitting that she make little g a monkey at build a bear… we named him p diddy… isn’t he the cutest? oh and p.s. the checkeroutter lady did NOT find it humorous. she looked at us like we were annoying when she announced the name of our new little bundle of cotton… hey, can’t win em’ all.

friday: christmas eve

hanging with my little man on his FIRST christmas eve. I love the outfit he’s wearing. one of our finds on our random shopping excursion on wednesday. it’s a cashmere jumper that says happy. too. friggin’. cute.

later on in the day we decided to go have lunch at on the border. I married a crazy. it makes me giggle.

I. love. her. and she loves g. which I think makes me love her more.

saturday: CHRISTMAS… g’s FIRST christmas!

funny, last year we were just starting to broach the subject of kiddos. look at us now.

one of my fav photos of the day. precious.

one of our presents to heather. doesn’t she look adorable in it?!

and that about sums up the week. it’s been a great one. seems to be a trend lately. not complaining!

merry christmas from our family to yours… hope you get to spend it with people you love… lord knows, it makes all the difference.

see you next week.

oh and p.s. as usual, if you’d like to link up… check out this blog. her blog rocks… plus, wordpress sucks and won’t let me post the linky thing. have a great week! toodloo!

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take a walk with me to randomland.

feeling the need for a random post today. to take my mind off of today’s (well, technically now it would be yesterday) horrid events. it was g-man’s 10 week check-up and the vaccines were even more traumatic then last time… I was bawling and john was working… (best day for him to have a “day” meeting… let me tell you.) and the nurse kept telling me, “oh, it’s ok. he won’t remember this…” um, k… but I will remember his shrill screams! thanks for understanding. definitely not my fav nurse. we’ve had her before unfortunately…

so, I was looking at pics on john’s phone today (wasn’t snooping, I swear!)… and I found some I hadn’t seen before… so I thought I’d share… listening to my little man sleeping on the monitor as I type this. thank god, no more vaccines for at least six weeks. I’m gonna need that long to prepare myself… and john is DEFINITELY not getting out of next time. little bugger.

these pics are super interesting to me! this was the day my water broke. so, these are the last pics of me pregnant outside the hospital… look at me! no idea my life was suddenly about to change! I was just depositing checks!

apparently, john thought he was a master photographer. look how patriotic! haha, he cracks me up. I’m glad I found these. we didn’t take many pics of me pregnant… I didn’t show until I was like 7 and a half months along!

this picture says it all. it was taken right after they took grayson away from me. what you don’t see is the neonatologists are putting g into a little tube like cradle thingy to wheel him to the nicu. I felt like I had failed him…

wouldn’t be a complete post without at least ONE photo of the little man. before we figured out he had a sensitivity to dairy/soy… the kid was always frowning… I would be too if I was in pain all the time!

that’s all I’ve got for now. definitely interesting the things he caught on his phone… I went from having 250 pics on my phone (mainly of my furrbabies…) to over a thousand since g was born… funny how they do that to you. I feel like I need to take a picture of every moment… it’s going by so fast!

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all I want for christmas…



this year is the first year I’ve been excited about christmas in a very long time. so many things have changed… the past two christmas’ spent in connecticut have been a tad dreary. first off, I couldn’t wait for christmas day to open presents, so when it rolled around there weren’t any to open! (redonkulous!)… and we don’t have any family over here, so they’ve been very isolating and lonely… I’ve just chalked it up to growing up. no more fun in christmas. it’s just another day.

this year already feels different.

grayson has changed most everything about my life… so why would christmas be any different? I know he won’t remember this christmas… but I most certainly will. our first christmas as a family. he’s already brought the excitement back. not to mention, all of the presents are STILL under the tree… wrapped and waiting… best of all? sissy. that’s right, my little sister is coming for christmas this year. I’m super stoked about having her here. I’m planning on making cornish game hens, cranberry cornbread, berry cobbler… the list goes on. especially since, I’ll have the extra help to watch the kiddo.

exciting.

even the music this year is not annoying. if only I could find my copy of muppets christmas… it would be complete. growing up it seems that was one of the only things that stayed the same. we ended up having two christmas’ every year. we always had our christmas with mom about a week prior. our christmas with dad was with him and his family on christmas day. one thing I seriously miss is waking up at nana and papa’s on christmas day. hearing the sliding glass door slowly creak open as granny entered. smells of berry cobbler and hot cocoa filling the room. papa walking around waking everyone up with his infamous cackeling. waiting anxiously for everyone to awaken so we could open presents… spending the day eating the most delish food on the planet and playing cards. phase 10 anyone? no christmas has been the same since. I haven’t felt that feeling… you know, that comfortable, homey, warm, happy feeling…

but it’s not about me anymore.

and that has changed things. it’s brought the excitement and wonder back… in a whole new way. I can’t wait until grayson is at the age where he understands… and I can tell him all about what christmas means to me. I can’t wait to start new traditions. us. as a family.  

and I can’t help but wonder, what will he look forward to every year?

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week five: iphone photos

well, today has been exhausting… so I’m super glad you can’t see me right now… I’m a scary sight. couldn’t sleep last night… worked from 8-2pm… came home to a grumpalump bebe… and a super tired husband.

long story short, I’m lucky to have a moment to myself to post this… not to mention diaper laundry! so happy I made it downstairs to the basement! it’s the little things.

monday:

this pic cracks me up. baxter was ECSTATIC when little g and I walked through the door monday night. once we got settled, he was right up on my lap and had to get as close to g as possible. I know g looks uncomfortable, but they both slept like logs… so apparently it wasn’t too terribly so.

tuesday:

another highly hilarious photo of baxter. this dog is a serious ham. if I bring out the camera or phone… he looks straight at me, poses, and waits. he was pouting. he would NOT look at me. he seriously cracks me up. who even knows what he was pouting about…

here’s my other pouty dog, elsie. she’s had a TON of changes to her lifestyle since little man has arrived… so I don’t blame her for pouting. we’re slowly easing her back into a little more freedom on this side of the gates… but I’m so flippin’ nervous! I’m sure it’ll be fine… she’s a kind-hearted dog… we’ll figure it out. oh and p.s. she’s totally sporting her christmas collar.

wednesday:

um, he’s super cute. that’s all. oh and p.s. I have no idea where we were going.

thursday:

apparently, the ergo makes us both happy inside. john says this pic makes me look like I’m about to eat little g. well, he’s so frickin’ adorable sometimes I want to just take a bite! lol… kidding, only kidding.

friday:

can you believe how much he’s grown? it’s unbelievable to me! I can’t wait for his dr appt on monday. dying to know what he weighs! btw, do you think it’s kosher to bring the peed cookies? I was thinking of making those peanut butter cookies with the kisses on top… oh and regarding the pic, he was wicked grouchy. it’s crazy how cute he is even when he’s being a grumpalump.

and that’s it for this week. I know, we’re terribly entertaining. in fact, here’s g’s opinion of this post…

thanks a lot for your support little man.

welp, that’s all for this week. can you believe the next time I post this, it’ll have pics of g’s first christmas? where did this year go? I was just telling john I was pregnant!…

if you’d like to join in on the fun… and I seriously suggest you do… check out this blog and link up… or just check it out because you like awesome mommy blogs.

the end.

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john.

it’s crazy to me that after eight years I still get butterflies in my belly at the thought of seeing john. when I was in california I missed him like crazy… and if it wasn’t for a stupid layout at the JFK airport… I probably would’ve jumped him right there in the lobby… he’s a pretty uhmazing fellow. I don’t know how I got so lucky.

had trouble sleeping last night… so I was pestering him a lot via text. he’s so good about it to. you know he’s thinking in his head, “dern it woman! I’m working!”… but he would never say that… he just answers my texts… and helps me get through the night. what a guy.

it’s hard to believe that we have a child now. it’s been quite the adjustment. we don’t get near as much time together as we used to. I miss him. I miss us. we’re still fine… we get along super well, but not getting to spend time together does begin to take it’s toll. we’ll figure it out.

I wrapped presents last night. let me tell you, homeboy is getting seriously spoiled this year. he’s a serious rc nerd… so I indulged. it was fun. he deserves it. he’s been so kick arse through my whole pregnancy and now with the bebe. he works so hard, too. he’s awesome. I seriously love the h-e-doublehockeysticks outta him. for real.

I remember when I met him it was more of a conquest. I didn’t even like him that much! look at us now… it’s just hard to believe I guess.

we took baby g to the grocery store today. I keep forgetting I take him out a lot more by myself… john hasn’t had too much experience with him outside the house. he kept saying, “wow, he’s being really good.” and I’m thinking in my head, “duh.” but then I have to sit back and remember the guy works ALL THE TIME. so, it was fun to experience it with him. he was excited. he’s funny. being with my two boys is my favorite. they are my life. and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

so here’s to you, john,

I love you so much. you’ve given me a life that I’ve always dreamed of. you’ve enabled me to take chances. you’ve given me the most beautiful baby on the planet. you’ve made it possible for us to afford a place where we can keep the furry kiddos. you’ve put up with my love for animals (even when it’s raged out of control)… you’ve backed me up when I needed you to. you’ve talked to me, when I didn’t want to listen. you’ve hugged me and let me cry. you’ve come home from work when I heard a scary noise. you are constantly making me laugh. you are my one. I wouldn’t trade you for anything! (ok, maybe a ford f150 fx4) KIDDING! I could go on forever about all the things I love about you… you know this. I don’t know how I got so lucky… but I’m so happy I left that post-it on your windsheild eight years ago. you’ve made me a very happy mama. I love you. over and over and over. forever.

love, me.

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little g’s california adventure, in photos.

no story would be complete without photos… right?

little g’s first changing session in the plane. cramped? yes. complicated? surprisingly, no.

papa with little g. we joked they looked like twins with the bald heads.

g with nana. she’s so pretty! (she and papa have been married FIFTY years!)

nana and patti chatting…

grandpa chris holding g. this is a funny photo. whenever g stretches his legs out straight like this, he’s working “it” out… no different here… during this photo, he let one rip.

grandma patti could hardly contain herself. she was super happy to get to spend some time with him…

he’s checking grandpa chris out.

they have the same ears!

this is one of my favs. right after this photo… he spit up all over gpa chris. I’m not gonna lie, I laughed pretty hard. leave it to little g for the comic relief.

heather and matt got engaged this year… so he’s little g’s soon-to-be uncle! first photo with their nephew…

another one of my favorites… little g loves to stand on his legs… he’s got himself all propped up on matt here.

sisterly love.

five generations!

from left to right: granny nelson, papa nelson, dad nelson, me, and grayson…
five generations of nelson blood. crazy. I’m so framing this.

dad and g. cute.

connie and g :)

exhausted, congested, me and g.

I flew three thousand miles for this pic. nuff said.

peanut, grannys dog, was jealous. that’s her lap!

even when I’m grouchy and tired… this little person still melts my heart.

g didn’t know what to think of uncle kyle…

john’s mom and stepdad came to visit… grandpa norms first time meeting g!

mom and abe with little g. grandpa abe’s first meeting, too!

I can’t find any pics of g with uncle blake except the ones on the iphone… and those are saved for this coming week in iphone photos… you’ll see him then! sorry blake!

can you see how much fun we had?! it was a blast. I’m exhausted.

until next time, toodloo!

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californeyeaye…

currently perched on my nana’s couch with baby g on my chest… I’ve caught some sort of something and he’s a little congested, too. it’s been a fantastic trip so far, regardless… and I have much to share… but I don’t have internet here, so I’ll have to wait until I return.

until then, wish me luck… haven’t been sick like this in years! boo!

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for the love of work… ?

I’m not going to even try to deny it. I’ve been dreading going back to work. I mean anxiously, not sleeping at night, dreaaaaaaaaaading leaving my son for a set number of hours a day. I’ve thought and thought about how I could rearrange our finances to make it work… and really, we could make it work… but honestly, it’s nice to have a little extra… especially with the baby… and saving for another house… that’s probably priority number one right now. so, long story short, I have to return.

so, today. I went in just for an hour or two… so my co-worker could show me all the changes that have been made (we’re going paperless. woot!). I was all stressed out thinking there was going to be a ton of things for me to learn. nope. it’s pretty much all the same… and my co-worker and I get along famously, so it was nice to go in even if to just chat with her… and honestly, it was a GODSEND. because now, not only am I not anxious about going back… I’m excited. it was nice to be reminded why I love my job.

tomorrow is my first official day back… and I’m ready. I love our clients and their pets… and my co–workers are great… so, I’m looking forward to it. plus, I was actually needed for something while I was there… and I’m not gonna lie, that was nice to know too.

at the moment I’m sitting on the couch in my living room typing on my netbook… with my baby on my chest in his sling. I’m here to tell you, life doesn’t get much better than this. for some reason, something clicked the other day. I was changing his diaper and he looked at me… and the way he looked at me made my heart swell for some reason… like he knew who I was… and since then, I haven’t been able to put him down when we’re together. I could just cuddle him crazy, I swear. but I think it’s been better for the both of us. I”m more relaxed… he’s sleeping better… TWO NIGHTS IN A ROW – FOUR HOUR STRETCHES! woot! now I’m starting to feel like we’re really bonding… it’s kind of exciting.

so, I’m sure you can tell. I’m in a much better place today mood wise. thankthelordjesus… I guess anxiety will do that to you.

well, I”m getting off course and setting into ramblesville… so toodloo for now.

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thank. you. god.

this is a beautiful thing.

and the first time it’s happened all. day. long.

it’s been a frustrating day. I got a quickie nap this morning (thank you john.)… and when I woke up I could tell it was going to be one of those days. I came down the stairs to a look from john that was like, “help!” he told me about  a half an hour before I woke up he was halfway up the stairs to get me. bless him. I needed the extra half an hour. especially for this afternoon.

from the second I woke up, he’s been fussy. I mean FUSSY. he wouldn’t eat, I changed him (worst changing session ever, mind you. he was squirmy screamer mcsquirmyson…), I fed him, I rocked him, cuddled him, put him on the playmat, fed him again, changed him, put him back on the playmat…

finally, sleep. thank you playmat. now he’s in the swing, rocking happily. phew, what a relief.

onto other news, I have something exciting going on that I can’t say anything about for a couple of weeks. I know, why even bring it up? well, I’m about to burst with excitement, that’s why! so, there’s a little teaser. come back to find out what it is. it’ll be worth the wait. I’ll take LOTS of pictures. trust me.

oh, and if you like the blanky in the pic, you can go grab something similar here. the red pistachio has THE cutest prints and her stuff is amazing. I’m a HUGE fan of hers and her sister over at the spotted barn. go check em’ out. if you have a baby shower coming up… they have THE cutest gifts. no joke.

anywho, away I go.

toodloo.

 

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