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week nine: iphone photos…

this week started off with mama trying to get a good photo for the happy heiny’s baby of the month contest…

it took quite a few tries… but it was super fun… and how can I resist that little face?

later in the day we ended up going to sonics… what? ct has a sonics? yeah, seeing was believing… and it was mighty tasty. I’m glad he got to wear this outfit… (daddy picked it out) because he’s already almost grown out of it!

I had a really hard time leaving this to go to work tuesday morning… luckily, I only had to work until noon… so, it didn’t take much time to get back to him.

tuesday was my favorite day of the week… it was our playdate with katherine and everly. as you can see, he’s definitely a fan of katherine.

everly and I put her pants on her head. yes, I agree, she’s the cutest baby girl on the planet… even with pants on her head! (it may even add a tad to her cuteness factor…)

wednesday had a KILLER storm over here in ct… we got like two and a half feet of snow. as you can see, the jetta was covered… I’m not gonna lie, sometimes it’s nice to be snowed in…

I got to get a ton of stuff done… including diaper laundry… thanks for the help, elsie!

after her hard work, I let her take a much deserved break… oh yeah and yes… we let our furrballs on the furniture! how dare we?!

thursday I had to work all day… but I came home for lunch and look! fluff mail! I had to order this dipe because one, I’ve never heard of this brand (what?!)… and two, it’s jet black… including buttons. it’s awesome… essentially though, it’s much like a fuzzibunz… and lord knows, I’ve got plenty of those.

this is my favorite photo. I think g looks adorable in it… and this is my outfit of choice by far… I love putting a sustainablebabyish dipe on him with sbish longies and calling it a day. he likes it too… as you can see, he’s pretty relaxed here.

had to take a pic of this gnarly icicle on my way out the door to work… death by icicle anyone?

that night g and I worked on his tummy time… he was NOT a fan. but he was cute, regardless…

my boys. sigh. love them.

this little birdy has been living in our back porch. we’ve been trying to rehome him (outside) for forever… but he keeps getting in. apparently, he thought he’d test out the real inside of our house… it took us forever to get him back outside… but I have not laughed that hard in forever… watching john run around with a towel trying to catch the little creature before baxter did was highly, highly hilarious.

and that’s our week! did you take pictures of your week in phone photos? link up with us and join the fun at this awesome mommy blog. (wordpress hates the code, and it makes me want to strangle wordpress, not gonna lie.)

toodloo! see ya next week!

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love hanging out with him.

when baby’s asleep… parents will… be nerds?

this is what john looks like after three hours of sleep… and two nine hour days of daddy and grayson… oh yeah and a 10 hour shift at work… I think he looks pretty dang good for that!

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people and their pets.

so, as we all are well aware… I work in the veterinary field. I wasn’t going to blog much about this… because to me, well, it’s kind of boring… but something happened yesterday that made me want to scream… and punch someone! (and I’m not a violent person, incaseyouwerewondering.)

yesterday afternoon we got a phone call. a woman was frantic… irate actually. she was screaming to the technician that her cat was “pissing” all over her house and she was sick of it. the technician tried to schedule an appointment. “no!” the client said… “I want him dead, NOW!” she kept screaming this over and over to the technician… and finally settled on, “well, I’m bringing him in… I don’t care if I have to pay extra. I want him dead as soon as possible.”

the technician hung up the phone and we waited. not sure what it was going to be like when this woman arrived with this cat we had never seen before.

when she flew into the parking lot with her gigantic over-priced gas-guzzling suv… we knew it was her. she jumped out and ran to the door with the cat flung over her shoulders. she claimed he was ten… we all settled on about three. she practically threw the cat at the technician… barked at me asking what she owed… and ripped a check out of her checkbook… all the while, mumbling to herself, “I’ve spent over four thousand dollars fixing my carpet because of this damn cat…” I mumbled something back like, “oh yeah, interesting.” what do you say? the woman obviously has no heart. she can pay four thousand bucks to replace the carpet but cannot pay seventy for an office visit to see what’s going on with the cat?

worst part? the cat was fractious… we all wanted to NOT euthanize the pet… because the owner obviously didn’t care what we did with him… but we needed to examine and run a urinalysis on him to see what was going on. not. going. to. happen. he wasn’t having it.

here are two main problems with this scenario.

a: who knows if this cat is vaccinated for rabies… and without proof, it’s assumed that it’s not.

b: we have to chop it’s head off if it bites someone. (yep, the state requires it to test it for rabies. or six months quarantine, but who’s gonna pay for that? the cat is homeless.)

it was heartbreaking. I just don’t get it. why have a pet if you’re more attached to your carpet? accidents happen lady. it doesn’t have to be a common occurrence¬†if you bring it to the vet and find out what’s going on… but it happens… and most of the time, when a cat is urinating/defecating outside the litter box – it’s cat for – help! I don’t feel good! this just completely drives me nuts. cats and dogs die all the time because of irresponsible people. it makes my heart hurt.

all it takes is two seconds. if you’re considering getting a pet, just think to yourself, “can I really afford to take care of this dog/cat for the next ten to twenty years?” if the answer is no… or even maybe not… don’t do it! wait! there will be others when you’re READY. if everyone took this advice… we’d have a lot less moments like the above mentioned. I’m not trying to get preachy though. I got my little baxter when I couldn’t afford him… and that seemed to turn out well. sometimes, I think pets show up right when you need them… he certainly did that for me.

other than that, nothing too exciting happened at work. other than the woman who came in with a brand-spankin new puppy (so squishy and cute.)… and she kept telling me how she hated her 16 year old son because he was “disgusting.” what does that even mean? I’m not gonna lie though… it was highly entertaining. people are funny.

all is well on the home front. john has the weekend off… and so do I, yippee! so, I’m looking forward to some family time. all of us, no obligations…

gonna go back to cuddling with baxter and baby g now… toodloo!

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3 months.

it’s official. I’ve been a mama for three whole months. it’s nuts. I would say I can hardly believe it… but these past three months have not been easy, nor have they gone by too fast… in fact, I think they’ve kind of crept by… and blurred together.

no one can possibly prepare you for motherhood. it’s unreal. and watching other people do it is nothing like doing it yourself. the fantasy meeting the reality can be harsh… and jolting. but I would not change a thing. I love my little g-man like crazy.

in the past three months he has changed so much. he went from being an orange preemie who needed a little assistance with breathing… to a thriving, kicking, rolling over, babbling, smiling, and laughing baby… and he continues to surprise us daily with his new awareness… I’ve never been so proud or in love with anyone/thing in my life. I have a son! a three month old, beautiful son!

so, happy three months baby g… you’ve made the world a brighter place because you’re in it… and I have a feeling it’s just going to get even better. I love you, grayson hawk.

love, mama

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there are no words. (actually, there might be a bunch…)

today has been pretty close to perfect. if my kid wasn’t spitting up in massive amounts as I type this and if I didn’t have a major mama booboo last night… it may have been perfect… but hey, I’m definitely not complaining… close to perfect is pretty freaking fantastic if you ask me.

last night when I went to bed at about 11:00… I checked the monitor, like I always do… about 18 times before my head hit the pillow. I cannot hear a thing through the wall between our room and g’s room, so I’m paranoid… (80 year – old insulation, who knew?)… apparently, I’m not paranoid enough, because when I woke up this morning at 7:30 I realized at some point in the night (which had to be relatively soon after I fell asleep)… the monitor had died. being the smartiepants I am, I didn’t have it plugged in. so, I flew out of bed and raced into my sons to room to him screaming bloody murder… my heart broke. I felt like the biggest schmuck on the planet… but he was forgiving… and thankfully, the diaper I had put on him last night had been too… no leaks. thanks gro-via! (it was a gro-via all-in-one… and I put it on him at 9:00 pm… way to go gro-via!) needless to say, it was a rough start to the day. I still feel kind of sick about it. considering he slept most of the day, which he hasn’t done in ages, I can only imagine how long he’d been lying there crying. ugh.

thankfully, this was the only moment of today that was less than pleasant. john came home shortly after “the incident”… and we had a pretty swell morning. he was awake and in a good mood and it was nice to hang out. which since we are both working now… and he’s back in school… oh yeah, and we have a newborn… has been a tad seldom. it was exactly what I needed after youknowwhat happened.

soon after, fedex arrived with a package practically about to burst open with cloth diapering goodness. sustainablebabyish wool and snapless multis. I seriously almost melted on the spot. I ran into the kitchen and ripped open the bag… and there they were. two pairs of the softest wool longies ever (in peacoat and squash – gorg!)… and three pairs of wool shorties (natural, mocha, and air… I won the natural pair! go me!)… I spent much of the afternoon lanolizing them… and they’re ready to wear now… yay! the package also had a wool shaver to keep them in good condition and five snapless multi diapers… seriously, I was in cloth diaper HEAVEN.

but the best was yet to come. for serious.

about twoish… katherine and everly arrived.

can I just take a minute to tell you how much I love this chick? (and of course her adorable bebe?!) I love her. not only because she’s totally fun to hang out with and she’s a westcoaster at heart like moi… she’s been a huge help to me since g was born… she’s leant her ear on many occasions when I thought I might lose my mind. her advice is always solid… and, wait for it… she got me into cloth diapering… that’s reason enough to love her as it is.

when she got here we just chilled for the first bit. I had run out and gotten us some wraps from roly poly… and we ate those while everly ate her turkey sandwich… e was giving me some serious baby girl fever… her cute little pink outfit and the way she would sign “please” and say… “more?” with her cute little inquisitive eyes and her baby accent. seriously, if I didn’t love this kid on contact I would be a crazy person. she’s a doll…

our visit went on with lots of giggles, stories, and babytalk – even a toddler spill… thankfully, she was fine… and her mama handled it like a champ… I think I was more shook up than anyone. yet another testament of how amazing katherine is as a mom. I seriously, seriously, needed this visit. it could not have come at a better time… and I think katherine hit the nail on the head… “having girl time… is like therapy…” and let me tell you, you can’t buy this kind. it was three hours of pure bliss. I felt like I was in high school and we were chatting in my room… but instead of talking about boys and school… we were chatting about husbands and babies… oh, how life has changed. who woulda thunk?

I wasn’t ready for katherine and everly to leave when the time came… which was kind of a good feeling. proved to me, I wasn’t faking it (which let’s face it… not every friend is a right fit… ifyouknowwhatimean.)… I really enjoyed every minute. we made promises to meet up next week… this time at her casa… and let me tell you… can’t friggin’ wait.

this got wayyyyyyyyyyy sappier then I was intending. what can I say? today was a ten.

oh and p.s. the day is not over yet… itttttttsssssssssss tshirt time!!!! new jersey shore tonight! yeah, I’m one of those

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should be doing diaper laundry right now, but….

I just don’t feel like it. I’m totally having kind of a downer day. not sure why… I went to work this morning… and it was a really good day. always nice to go to work… I like feeling productive… and I like being around adults… and a break from being covered in spittle is always nice. then I came home and both john abd baby g were in good moods… baby g smiled at me right when I walked in. it hit me then, that I had missed him like crazy. that’s the only part of this working thing thats a bummer… I feel like I’m going to miss things. I guess I AM going to miss things… and I don’t want to. miss. anything.

maybe that’s what’s got me down. maybe I’m a tad californiasick – it happens on occasion. it’s getting less and less frequent… but I just wish we had more family around. I could use the support. hanging out with katherine over the weekend just proved to me how much I miss hanging out with friends and family. (she’s coming over on thursday, eep! we’re gonna hang out and do a diaper swap. it’s the little things.)… and I’ve been missing john a lot lately. when I was pregnant and he was working third shift it was great. I was having a lot of trouble sleeping at night and frankly, I didn’t miss his snoring. plus, we had much more time together during the day… when I would come home from work… but now, in a flurry of babymania… I’m feeling more lonely than I’ve felt in a long time. don’t get me wrong, I love g to pieces… but he’s not huge on conversation, ifyouknowwhatimean…

on a happier note, he’s sleeping much better at night. he fell asleep last night at 7:30… gave him a (gasp!) bottle at 10:30, he fell right back to sleep. he got up once more at 2:30… and then I got up for work at six… and he still hadn’t woken up. thankthelordjesus… he seems to be settling into a routine. I actually went to work today feeling semi-rested… what? yeah, you heard me. semi-rested. win.

john just came down the stairs. he looks like the walking dead… told him he should go back to sleep… he looks at me glossy-eyed and says, “but I really want to hang out with you…” at least it’s not just me.

toodloo for now.

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top ten of twenty-ten…

I’ve been thinking about twenty-ten a lot today. only natural I suppose… this was a huge year for me. for a lot of reasons. many involving my little g-man… but not all. I’ve read tons of blogs today and many of them are posting top ten photos of twenty-ten. totally amazing… and some of the mamas got some great photos… but I don’t have photos for my top ten moments… so I thought I’d just write at cha’ about em.

these are in no particular order of importance. maybe in chronological order…

one – positive pregnancy test(s). I still remember the look on john’s face. whatthefrigginfrackdoidonow?! he was not thinking it would happen so soon. I remember telling my sister on the phone… a week before I even took the tests that I knew I was pregnant. call it mother’s intuition I suppose.

two – there’s movement! our 12 week ultrasound was incredible. definitely the best one of the entire pregnancy and I had what seemed like many. I just remember the feeling of lying on the chair while the technician ran the wand around thinking… this is real… this is happening… then, he started kicking and shoving his little arms at the wand every time she pushed even slightly on my tummy. he was already a feisty little one. by far, one of the best days of twenty-ten… possibly one of the best days of my life.

three – surprise! memorial day weekend john’s stepdad, norm was scheduled to come and visit on his way to his daughters house in mass. well, not only did he arrive… but john’s mom did, too! I was so happy to see them… and the surprise of having her here for the entire weekend was so freaking fabulous. I loved every minute… even though I puked the entire time… plus, the last day of their trip, I felt g move for the first time. it was a fantastic weekend and I’ll never forget it.

four – it’s a boy! I knew g was a boy. I just knew it. but seeing it on a screen and knowing it for sure… was magical. I would have been happy either way. in fact, in the beginning I was sure I wanted a girl… but there was something about my pregnancy, I was sure he was a boy… and I was happy about it. really, really, happy about it… and you should’ve seen the look on john’s face. holy lord, he was excited. uber frickin’ excited.

five – showers, showers, and more showers…! in the end, I ended up having three showers. two thrown in california by family and one here in connecticut by my boss… they were all awesome and they were definitely a treat. it’s really awesome to see how much people love your bebe even before he’s born. I do not recommend traveling when pregnant… (if you’re having a pukey pregnancy)… I’m pretty sure the entire plane could hear it… and it was not pleasant.

six – “you’re gonna have the baby this weekend…” jenna (my lovely co-worker) said on my way out of work. I had left early that day. I wasn’t feeling to savvy. I was thirty-five weeks preggo… but I had been thinking he was going to come early. I shrugged it off and went on my way… when I called her at five am the next morning to tell her she was going to have to work for me that day… I doubt she was super happy about her prediction… (I’m giggling right now to myself… still cracks me up.)

seven – “you can do it, babe… you’re doing so well!” my husband surprised the crizap out of me when I was in labor. he was supportive. he’d hunt down a nurse when he had to… and he got me popsicles all the time. when it came time to push he was so supportive… and even when I puked on him… he just kept telling me to keep going – we were almost there. he was a pain in my butt while I was pregnant… but he was killer when I was in labor… I guess I’ll take it. <3

eight – you’re mine. once the initial shock of mommyhood wore off… and the baby blues seemed to melt away (I’m sort of feeling like they’re still not fully melted as of late)… I finally got that feeling of holy cow, he’s mine… I’m the person that is in charge of this handsome little blob of bebe. he’s starting to develop a little personality now… and he’s smiling… so, lately has been a lot more fun… but I have to admit I still look at him from time to time and think… holy cow, you’re mine! it’s a trip, this whole motherhood thing.

nine – dad, mom, john’s mom, heather… having so much family out here this year has meant the world to me. I needed the help and support… and I needed to be around people that I didn’t have to “think” while I was around… if you know what I mean… just no work involved. especially my sister. we got to gripe at each other… and as crazy as it sounds… it was super comforting.

nine and a half – granny, nana, and papa. seeing my grandparents with my bebe was beyond amazing. since before g was born I was plotting on how soon I could get him out there to see them. especially granny, since she is 91… I wanted to make sure I (selfish, I know) had the chance to be around her with my son. I love them all to death… and it was an awesome experience… as well as being able to show him off to my dad, stepmom, john’s dad and stepmom… the trip to california was amazing.

ten – baxterlove. (as I sit here and type this, baxter is cuddling my side. trying to bring inspiration, I guess.)¬†the entire time I was pregnant I fretted and fretted about baxter and how he was going to react to baby g. he’s been the only baby in my life for five years and I have spoiled him rotten. he’s gotten to go to work with me. he’s gotten to ride with me on errands. he’s moved several times with me. he’s been the best dog I have ever had in my entire life. and I was worried sick. and then we brought grayson home… baxter acted like it was no big deal. he’d sit on my lap with me and g while I cried trying to breastfeed. he’d mess up my pile of diapers as I tried to fold them (over and over because of his little bum.)… he’d lay with me as I’d try to get baby g to sleep. he’s been amazing. it’s almost like after five years of me taking care of him, he feels like it’s his turn to take care of me. and I freaking love him more than I ever have. which I thought was impossible. people told me my feelings for my pets would change after grayson was born. and I’m not gonna lie, my feelings for elsie have changed. I still love her to pieces… just not the same as I did before… but baxter. he’s still my little soul-dog. there hasn’t been one like him for me before… and there probably never will be again… so I’m going to take advantage of the time I have with him… and I’m going to hopefully instill in g the importance of animals… and what they bring. I better stop now. I could go on for days. I seriously love this dog. I tell john all the time I wish there was a pill out there that made dogs age like people… not seven-times as fast. see, here I go. I could go on for days.

so that’s my top ten of twenty-ten… there were many more moments that have been ingrained in my memory… but these were the first to mind. 2010 was a stellar year… and I can only imagine was twenty-eleven will bring. I have some ideas. but we’ll see what happens. I’m finding that what I want to happen and what actually happens don’t always coincide. ah, such is life.

bring it on, twenty-eleven. totally looking forward to it.

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3 years… 3 YEARS!

um, married for three years. nuts.

I guess it’s not that big of a deal for some people… but it’s been quite the journey to get us here… and I’m proud we made it! we’ve been together on and off since 2002… but we were just talking last night about how this is the longest stretch… straight… we’ve been together. it’s been four and a half years of togetherness… woot! it’s hard to believe that next december 31st… we’ll have a one year old!

(here’s a pic of us… circa 2003… I’m jealous of myself in this pic. redonk.)

here’s to many more years of togetherness.

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moments like these.

driving my sister to the airport tonight I realized… I wasn’t ready for her to leave. how ironic is that? I honestly, really enjoyed her this trip. we laughed, we cried, we complained about our parents, we giggled with my son, we had fun. serious amounts of it. an almost unfair amount.

leaving her at the airport was hard. I love that we live in the day and age that even if you live 3000 miles away… you’re just a plane ride away… but it still sucks. I wish she lived closer. I would love to see her more often… and now that I have little g… even more so. because I think family is important… and I hate the fact that ours lives so far away. but enough of my tiny violin. I’m really happy we got to spend the time we had together… I missed her like crazy.

she made my son laugh. for the first time. it was an amazing moment. I looked at her and I was like, “did he just laugh?” and she was like, “I’m pretty sure he did.” we both sat there dumbfounded for a minute and then, just like that… he did it again! he’s been doing it every now and then ever since. one of the best sounds ever, fyi… and I’m so glad heather was here to experience it.

I miss her already… we miss her already. can’t wait until next time.

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and you’ll have to raise the bebe…

if you’ve ever seen summer heights high (with comedian chris lilley)… you know what the title’s about. if not… I highly suggest you youtube, netflix, WATCH it… it’s highly hilarious. my sister and I have been watching it all week and we’ve been quoting this line… which I think makes it even more funny… which brings me to my point… she’s still here! since we had a redonkulous blizzard blow in out of nowhere… all flights out of JFK got the boot… and we’re still waiting to get through to her friggin’ airline… TWO DAYS LATER! doubleu – teee – efff airlineIwillnotname?!

so… we’re stuck. she’s stuck. I’m stuck… not fun. she’s super homesick and I would like to hog my husband for a few of the very seldom days he has off… but, well, such is life. and I can’t really complain… I am still enjoying her and g loves her to DEATH… I mean seriously. john and I went out to check out a car tonight (yep, thinking about buying a smaller, more economical, mommy suv)… and we came home and she had him cackeling up a storm. it was adorable. she loves him and he definitely loves her. it’s cute.

plus, when we’re not grouching at each other… we’re actually enjoying the extra time. so, for the time being we’ll roll with it. hoping she gets home before next year. (teeheehee… literally.)

nothing much else. we had a fantastic christmas. skype, heather, and g made it one of the best in a very long time. gotta love modern technology. plus, john got me a pandora bracelet… um, cute!

anywho, back to hanging with the fam… until next time, toodloo!

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